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Patience is the hardest thing to learn, because you need patience to learn it.

Now patienly try to read the below body of text to understand what I am trying to do. And don’t forget to remember the title as you read this article.

“In this piece of literature, I am not evangelizing the idea that “god is just a concept”. I am not taking stands on admitting to the question “Does god exist?” I am an agnostic who stands neutral and takes his time to analyse the situation before coming to a conclusion. And as an agnostic it my duty to defend all agnostics. I feel thinking as an equivalent of writing, I thereby by write (think) about myself, about surroundings, about life and existence and about universe of infinite possibilities in the next fraction of time (livetheinfinity).

Pardon me to liberally take the identity of an agnostic and speak for them to gain attention among the readers of internet. I am just a consciousness talking about the art of life. How at various dimensions various entities interact to create a spectrum of drama that we call ‘memories’. Languages, and words too were created for easing the sharing of information but what use? These fellow humans have only focused on using it to swear other and spread negativity in the system.

There can only be two states: negative and positive, you are either this or that. That’s the energies of ions. Right? The fundamental part of life. Therefore the universe must be made of duality. Right? Wrong! If that was true everything in life must just have been duality. Yes. No. 1. 0. In. Out. Right. Wrong. Good. Bad. But it is more convoluted than that, especially for humans, thinking and making decision is a byzantine process and it gets worse as time proceeds (there is a reason why I used the word ‘proceeds’ here).

When a human starts analysing things and manages to put his complete focus on one thing, he is able to achieve it. And vice versa also happens. But he got distracted because he started putting effort into doing what he wanted to do. Shouldn’t he be appreciated for that? Think harder. Where is this article going? You started reading this article like you knew what you are and what you are doing. But the reality is – you don’t know shit. You, me, we are all in this piece of body with colour, dimensions and other form of physical constraints. What are we as consciousness doing here? Are we a part of bigger civilization that these unrealized humans call aliens? Are we erased of other memories and are limited to the capacity we have currently. What is this hardware called brain and how did it get created. Where is it taking us? Or should I ask where they are taking us.

As different consciousnesses we are to think together, imagine together of the possibilities of future and interestingly possibilities of what the past might be. Imagination is insightful. Yet those are the things unimaginable that gets noticed all the time. Didn’t we notice the universe such an unimaginable creation. Why? We appreciate creativity (a process of creating something unimaginable to awe the audience). And people of creative living seem to have understood god. They seem to have understood the design atleast. They are able to pour out continous flow of thoughts from the brain through the soul and express in different forms on the physical world. Aren’t these people artists? Should we call that creation the god? The creation (GOD) that would have created such an awesome creation (HUMAN) that creates other creations (for example: AI). Thus, god itself must be a creation, created by a creator. And this loop keeps on going infinitely that’s why it is essential to livetheinfinity to understand the concept of god.”

–That was the writer’s reply to the thought “if god was a concept?”

Read the whole body of text again. This time read it slowly and notice how the narrative jumps from one form to other. From human to consciousness and further deeper. Continue reading once you have fully caught hold of the above passage. This is an essay comprising tools that expert writers use, being demonstrated for free.

This feeling of having multi-layered identification is called the consciousness. How much ever you dive deeper it goes even further. This is what the yogi’s of ancient Indian culture calls the “chitha”. It is when this chitha is attained, one gets to peak of awareness that you are able to see things as it is. Perceive it as it is in the crudest form. To understand what is happening to you, to understand why you are played with these thoughts you need to understand how they (the thoughts) function. Could you ever notice the origin of thoughts or be conscious of its death? The answer is ‘no’. We need practice to distance ourselves from thoughts and observe it but remember that the original point of doing this is to see if god is in the thought that exists in us. Imagine – “you are assertive that you are being controlled from inside and you are therefore moving further and further inside to find the answer.” And once you move inward too much. You crave for more experiences and embark in the endless journey of putting EFFORT to realise the GOD. And that is why you need to read my next article on EFFORT!

It was way too hard for me to manage to get a decent 6 hours of sleep everyday to make this experiment possible. I had to push myself at work in order to be back at home in my bed at 10.30 pm sharp for my 6 hours sleep cycle. Waking up at 4.30 am bought me 4 hours additional time over what I usually had. I did the above for one week continuously and have shared my results below.

Here are some things that I managed to note down from my daily activity as I woke up really early in the morning:

More time added to the routine –

The obvious fact is that you get to add more hours to you active awake time. This give you a advantage over others, since you have more time naturally you tend perform better and produce more results than others.

It gives you a psychological edge –

You are already awake and engaged in some kind of activity early in the morning while others are sleeping. This, psychologically had an impact in me i.e, I felt like I am already ahead of others.

You can plan your days better

I am a sort of person who would want to plan my days the previous day before I go to sleep. But waking up early helped me finish those personal (blog/exercise/books) tasks at hand very soon and plan for the other tasks efficiently and quickly.

You have more active hours than usual throughout the day-

The days I woke up early were not only long but very much alive. The energy level was very high. I was fresh enough to give an aptitude test before I slept and still managed to score well in it. Really, I am not kidding, I tested this out one day out of curiosity.

You can set a healthy morning routine – 

Of all the perks that I could get, this will definitely be the favorite. As a busy person stuck with so much to do back at work, I usually find it hard to spend an hour in the gym. Waking up early got me this precious time to set my own morning ritual. This was essential for Project 1200. I exercise by going to gym + books (3 hours) and cycling 60km (3 hours) on alternate days.

Arrive office before colleagues do – 

This one is a valuable hack. I get an hour of absolute calmness in my office and can patiently look at the tasks at hand to plan my day better. In fact the preparation part of my work takes some time. The execution is often a streamlined process. I work as a data scientist, and deal with a lot of coding, this quite hour helps me plan my tasks and helps me tackle the challenges well.


I feel more energetic, smart and alive on days in which I wake up really early.

I have decided to plan my days accordingly that I get 6 hours of sleep from previous night. The time I wake up in the morning depends on the time go to sleep for the previous night.

Following these simple steps weren’t really hard and worked for me well.

What to Do When You Get Up

First, things not to do with your newfound early-morning time: don’t check email, news, social media, blogs. Don’t waste this new time doing the same thing you always do.

Here are some other things that are better, in my experience:

  1. Drink a glass of water. You’re dehydrated from not drinking any water all night. Drink a full glass of water if you can. It’ll make you feel more awake.
  2. Meditate. Even just for 3 minutes. It’s such a great way to start your day — doing nothing, just sitting, and practicing mindful focus.
  3. Write. Or do some other kind of creating.
  4. Exercise. Go for a walk or a run, or do a home workout.
  5. Enjoy a cup of coffee or tea. Either one of these makes the morning better.

Sleeping Earlier – Learning

You can’t just wake up earlier and not sleep earlier. You’ll eventually crash. So here are some tips for getting to sleep earlier:

  1. Set a bedtime of 7-8.5 hours before you want to wake up. So if you’re waking up at 5.30 a.m., go to bed between 10:30-11 p.m. Where you are in that time frame depends on how much sleep you need. Most people need about 7.5-8 hours of sleep, though there are lots of variations. I tend to get about 6.
  2. Create a bedtime ritual. I like to  clean up a little (it’s nice to wake up to a clean house). Then I read myself to sleep.
  3. No computers in bed. That means no laptop, no tablets, no mobile phones. Kindles are OK. No TV either. Just reading.
  4. Exercise helps a lot earlier in the day. It gets your body nice and tired, so you’ll sleep better. Don’t exercise an hour or less before bed, or you’ll be pumped up.
  5. Try this method if you have trouble sleeping: close your eyes and get comfortable, then think of the first thing you did that morning — the very first thing, like turning off your alarm. Then think of the next thing, and so on, replaying your morning in as much detail as possible. I never get to mid-morning.

This is an experiment that spanned for about two months in which I tried to follow a few principles of Tyler Durden from the movie Fight Club, because I got inspired by this character, and I had an interesting idea to experiment with. If you have seen this 1999 epic movie you would have probably fell in love with the Tyler Durden character, which is claimed to be one of the coolest characters in history of Hollywood.

This experiment was divided into two phases, first month I looked ugly the aim was to build a geeky image whose priorities where clearly not to make friends. It wasn’t hard since I had to make minor alteration to my looks but not much to my social behavior. The second was to embrace the “Tyler Durden” part in me, getting the facial looks were easy, developing the physical appearance and faking my attitude was a task.

Spoiler alert! In case you haven’t see the movie, stop reading now and continue after watching the fantastic film.

Gist of what happens in the movie – The unnamed narrator in this movie can sleep only by leaching off those around him or had to tap into his primitive side. When both doesn’t work he created a whole new persona “Tyler Durden”. Initially the narrator becomes hateful. This was because the character Tyler Durden dehumanizes and focuses on self-reliance and emotional distance. That’s was why the training to get into Project Mayhem was designed in that manner. The followers try to define themselves by being nothing.

Here the unnamed narrator turns into something (Tyler Durden) who was exactly the opposite of all that he is/ was. I could easily draw parallels between myself and the unnamed protagonist. Just like him I try to control too many things around me. I was a compulsive consumer, but have taken up minimalism recently and actively following it. I have had bad days that seemed faded and days in which I craved for some sort of love through relationship. It all hit me during the car scene that at some point anyone who is dissatisfied with who they are might want to change in to someone different (entirely opposite) who they are willing to be. But there comes some skepticism if the society will accept them in that form. When you go past the internal resistance you start to follow a fake it till you make it strategy.

Here is what I did to define the Tyler Durden in me, the result of this experiment was an absolute shame –

I started letting go of the control that I had over things. It was hard at the beginning but eventually I got an hang of it. It helped me differentiate fear from danger. Danger is real, fear isn’t. And to better phrase it. I realized that I was suffering not from the actual event but from my judgement of the actual events.

I could not control the reality but I could very control my judgments – the way I perceive the reality. The first time you start late to catch a flight you might be worried about making it to the airport on time to catch the flight. This can repeat the second time as well, may be the third time too. But what about the tenth time. I get used to this feeling and wouldn’t spend energy worrying about it, rather you would spend time thinking clearly on how not to miss it. You will not be carried away by the moments emotion. You get to think clearly and react better at that incident.

I wanted to change my appearance. I conducted a social experiment by keeping my appearance really unattractive (I look the geekiest I could look like), I observed and learnt a lot which I have shared here. But beyond that my next transformation was similar to Tyler Durden (both in terms of appearance and social behavior). I put in little effort like, I started going to gym, followed “Tyler Durden” diet from some YouTube videos and changed my facial hairstyle. Something really interesting happened, people started recognizing the change and complimented the new look suited me well. This is when I realized the “POWER OF LIKABILITY”. It has become necessary nowadays that to fit into the likable category among people we had to be look-conscious. If you do not take basic care of how you look, it is considered abnormal behavior. Everyone wants to look to their best to be likable and attractive. Some say they want to look at their best since they love themselves.

During this phase of change, I felt some authority. People were more receptive compared to the uglier version. I got a kick out of it and started embracing this change. My intention was simple, through this experiment I wanted to prove my point that people give more importance and build relationships based on looks of others rather than values and principles.  This point turned out to be true and Tyler Durden was just a tool I used to prove this point. I earned more friends being ruthless Tyler Durden. But they were all superficial.

Point proved. What next?

I continue to retain the looks but not the detrimental values. I am developing better values on top of what moral I had already developed. Currently I am reading Sam Harris’ “The Moral Landscape” and developing interesting perspective, which I will be sharing soon. Listening to his being good, and doing good podcast  with Scottish philosopher William MacAskill was eye opening as well.

I see society is shifting towards building relationships based on momentary pleasure and satisfaction – a kind of instant gratification. Is this why I come across so many people complaining that their friends are all superficial friends and are not able to make trust worthy long term relationships?


Any smart person should understand that looks can be used as instrument that gives you the power of being likable.


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